I totally love Kaelah's Honest to Blog series, so I decided to secretly borrow it from her. :D Na, just kidding, I totally asked her permission. Did you really think I'd steal a fellow bloggers idea? *winks*
And with that disclosure, here follows Katie's first post in her own Honest to Blog series:
I may not show it here on the blog much, but I have a bad habit of being a bit of a doom-and-gloom sort of person - at least lately. This bothers me because I'm really not unhappy - I'm actually the happiest I've ever been before.
I have trouble expressing it sometimes - I have too many words for my brain to process - but I really feel like I'm on the right path now. Is it the path everyone wants me on? Probably not. Is a path everyone aproves of? No. But then, since when have I ever been on a path that everyone liked and approved of?
I've always done my best not to worry about what other people think/say and do what I believe is right and God-honoring in my life. Because, really, that's all that matters, and I know that if I do anything less than that I will regret it. One of my goals in life is to live without regrets, and while this may seem unrealistic to some people, I don't think it is. I don't mean I want to never make mistakes - we all do that - but I don't want to regret those mistakes, because everything is in God control, and He knows everything that is going to happen to me. Everything - ever mistake, every failure, and ever success will play a roll in shaping my life. If even one of those "failures" didn't happen I wouldn't be who I am today - and since I really like who I am today, why would I waste my time regretting something I can't change, that has helped me be who I am today?
It seems pretty stupid to me, so I'm not going to do that. I'm going to live my life the way I feel is right for me based on my strengths and desires and what I feel God is calling me to do. Some may call this nieve, but I can't live my life based on what others think I should do. I'm not as childish as everyone thinks I am. I don't make all my decisions based on my emotions - quite the oposite, really - I try to make all my decisions with the thought of "what will I think of this when I'm 40?" And right now, where I am, and where I'm headed seems right to me.
I have absolutely amazing friends - I mean, really awesome - a great family, and a blog I love. I know where I want to be in ten years, I am doing my best to get there, and I am enjoying the journey there, too. After all, it's not about the destination, it's about the journey, right?
Hoping you all have a lovely weekend! ♥