Since starting this blog I have often asked myself why I blog. Is it to promote modesty? To become popular (that one usually comes up at times when my self esteem , as in "am I really awful and just trying to be popular?")? To make friends? The answer is that I do it for a lot of reasons, and one of the most important to me I didn't enen notice till last Friday.
I don't know how many of you know this but I used to write books. None of the were published but it was my dream as well as my goal to get them to that point. I wrote every day - even if it was just a few words. But durring my sixteenth year I realized that I have very little talent for writing fiction, and that I did not enjoy it as much as I thought I did - so I stopped writing my books. It's not as sad as it sounds - I don't miss them at all. But what I did miss was the feeling of doing something creative. Until I started this blog I was a creative nomad, with nothing to do.
A lot of people think I am vain for working on my blog so hard. They see me spending so much time self portraits and label it vanity without a second thought. But the truth is, a lot of times I don't want to fix up. I don't want to put on a dress and do my hair and make up and spend many minutes trying to decide which accessories look best - I do it because I think I have a responsibility as a blog owner to make sure I regularly have good content for my readers, and because I enjoy the creativity of it. I enjoy stretching my brain and trying to find mor ways to wear everything in my closet, I enjoy racking my brain for different photo shoots to do. THat creative work out every day is something I have missed lots since I stopped writing, and is a big motivation behind why I blog. It's not the only reason - but it is part of it, and it's also why I am going to try to have four outfit posts every week from now on.
So today's pictures (from last Friday) are not the best, but I created something, and I felt awesome in this outfit all night long - and that's all that matters.