It feels like I haven't written in forever and a day. I've been in a weird place, emotionally, but I feel like I finally have a sense of clarity about what I want to do with my life.
For as long as I can remember I've wanted to help girls. Every single time one of my friends was going though a hard time I wanted to be the one to help her. I've learned so much about eating disorders, sexual abuse, and the like in trying to be there for my friends.
I used to feel guilty because I had never been through anything like that. I guess you would call what I was feeling "survivor's guilt." I wondered why God had given me such an "easy" life. It wasn't fair while my friends were going through so much, but it makes sense to me, now. Those issues just aren't who I am - not that someone is less than me for having them, those just aren't my battles to face.
I used to want to be a councilor, but then I thought that I got too emotionally invested to do something like that. I had to take a big step back to realize that I think that's what I'm supposed to do.
I love girls. I love being around little girls, I love hanging out with girls younger than myself. I love feeling like I'm making a difference in someone's life. Because even though I'm not the wisest person in the world, I have been around the block once or twice, and I do have some knowledge I can pass on to girls younger than myself.
I used to be so scared, nervous and so insecure, but I've come a long way. I'm doing things now that I still can't believe. Things I know I wouldn't have had the nerve to do two years ago. I don't think that coincidence. I don't think it's an accident. I think that God has a plan for it. I want to teach
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shorts: Top Shop via the Buffalo Exchange
blouse: Maurice's
cardigan: c/o Conversation Pieces
necklace: flea market
stockings: Forever 21
shoes: c/o Blowfish Shoes
shoes: c/o Blowfish Shoes
necklace: flea market
title: More Beautiful than You Believe by Summertime's End
I'm so happy for you that you discovered what you want to do! Teaching is a great career. I've considered it before, but I don't think I have the patience...haha. I admire those who do, though!
ReplyDeleteI went to school for psychology and I wanted to be a counselor for adolescents, but I soon realized that I don't have the kind of personality that would allow me to separate work from personal and that I would quickly become burned out because I'll get too emotionally drained. I still sometimes think about ways I can help, though. I've had my struggles and it'd be nice to be there for someone else who is going through the same thing. That was always the appeal for me...to make a positive difference in someone's life.
LOVE this outfit!
ReplyDeleteThat's great that you want to help young women. They (we) can be such tormented little souls....
Tiff Ima
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I love how you love people :) It's really inspiring. I think you would be a fantastic counselor! Wish you the best.
ReplyDeleteYour outfit is gorgeous, love the polkadots!
ReplyDeleteLove that cardigan and the shirt!
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Really inspirational story :) You go girl!! And I love your tights/shorts combo!!
ReplyDeleteMackenzie
www.heybirdfriend.com
This outfit is so cute and muted for you!
ReplyDeleteWow. What an encouragement to hear this coming from someone else! My best friend went through an eating disorder about a year ago and it was absolutely heart-wrenching watching her suffer and being able to say nothing but, "I know it's hard. But God will get you through it," when I really didn't know what she was going through! But it's just another example of how only God can truly know our sufferings, and that's why we need to trust in Him!
ReplyDelete(On a side note, I LOVE your polka dot tights. I just recently discovered your blog and I'm smitten!)
-Rachel
Ooo! Are those the short you were talking about the other day? They look so adorable, especially with that lace top!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you have discovered what you want to do! I want to work with a women population as well - I'm currently studying social work. :)
xoxo,
Laura
http://lauraisthriftingthroughlife.blogspot.com/
First off, wow, I think it is great that you have a passion for helping people. I can understand that you would want to be able to help by relating understanding your own pain with people who have been through hard things. Just remember that even though you have been blessed without many hardships, there is The One you can relate things to (Jesus, for instance)! Point them there. Sometimes people just want someone who shows them love and compassion and an ear to listen to them, and someone to hold their hand or wipe their tears away regardless of if you have been through the same thing or not. May you be willing to continue to have such a heart for others and be able to minister to many with that!! It is beautiful!!!
ReplyDeleteSecond off, Love this outfit and I think that the necklace looks so lovely with it as a whole and those tights are so cute!!
+Victoria+
Wow, This post sounded so much like me. I've developed such a passion for helping young ladies even though I haven't been through certain things they have. I used to want to be a counselor too, but changed my mind, But the passion to help never left, It's actually grown.
ReplyDeleteIt's lovely to find your blog.
I really like the tights with that cardigan, very cute outfit!
-Chantal
www.stilldeeper.blogspot.com
Wanting to teach is good and help people. Most of my friends who teach hate it. They don't like teaching kids. At all. They did it because they didn't it make it through their first majors. It's really sad, so I love when people actually are interested in teaching, even if not school, but at all. Just because we need more people like that. and I LOVE this outfit so so sos soso much. those shorts! SO cute!
ReplyDeleteI love that you've found what to do and you love it. I pray God to help you through the lil challenges you may face. Go girl! www.youngospel1.blogspot.com
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