Enchanted to Meet You

I thought I would share some of the photos of me that my friend, Christina took yesterday when we went on our photo shoot.

Sometimes I like to pretend I am an old fashioned princess - adored by many - just to escape the reality of my lonely, dull life. I'm like every other girl - I want to be loved. I want to feel important to someone. I've thought of myself as slow to trust for a while (I don't ever assume anything. If you want me to know I'm special to you, you'll have to tell me, because otherwise, no matter what you do, I am going to believe I am nothing to you). And once my trust is broken it takes a while for me to work up the courage to open up again. Yet lately I've been surprised at the people to whom I will open up. People I never would have expected it to be easy to talk to.

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Despite what I may seem, I am actually very insecure - especially so this year. I am constantly worrying about what others think of me, and I always think the worst of compliments. Someone will ask me if I model, or say that I should, and in my head I hear "you have nothing more to offer than how you look." So I guess it's no wonder that I naturally gravitate towards people who I feel listen to, and care for me. People who I feel I can be myself around - my whole self, and not just an empty shell of my real self. And some of those people are the last people I - or anyone else, I think - would have expected it to be, and yet, in what seems a very short time to me, they have already become like family to me. I wonder if they'll ever know that. I said nearly as much (as close it as shy little me will get) the other day, but I still can't help wondering. I guess that even though I don't admire Taylor Swift nearly as much as I did before Speak Now came out, there is still one trait of her's I'm jealous of - her ability to tell people just how much the mean to her. That's something that's very hard for me to do.