Afraid to Fall

Inspired by my outfit yesterday, I decided to post another one of my poems. Poetry is one of my favorite forms of self expression, and this one is especially personal to me. I wrote it about some trouble I was having with a friend, and it's a great reminder not to let myself go back there.

I'm reaching for the door

'Cause I'm out of here if talking to me's now a pain

And I say that you don't need me now,

'Cause it's easier just to run away -

To open the door and be gone -

Then to stay and risk getting hurt,

Just like I"m so scared I will.

But first I stop,

And look back again,

And I know it's clear -

I'm making the biggest mistake

'Cause I'm standing at the edge of a cliff

And you ask me to jump.

You ask me to trust you.

You say you'll catch me.

But I'm afraid to fall -

Afraid to be hurt,

And it's easier just to run away;

To open the door and be gone.

You're so very quiet.

I know you're mind's a million miles away from me.

And I tell myself that you don't care

'Cause it's easier just to run away -

And to get away from that fall -

Then to jump off the cliff and trust

When I'm so scared of falling.

But first I stop,

And look at you,

And I know it's clear -

I'll loose you now if I don't trust.

'Cause I'm standing at the edge of a cliff

And you ask me to jump.

You ask me to trust you.

You say you'll catch me.

But I'm afraid to fall -

Afraid to be hurt,

And it's easier just to run away;

To open the door and be gone.

If jumping's what it takes -

If I have to jump to keep you with me forever -

I will.

'Cause I love you and I'll do

Whatever it takes to ensure

You'll always be here with me.

So I'll jump -

Just tell me again

That you'll be at the bottom.

I need to hear

You say it again

'Cause I'm still afraid

But I'm going to trust you now.

'Cause I'm standing at the edge of a cliff

And you ask me to jump.

You ask me to trust you.

You say you'll catch me.

But I'm afraid to fall -

Afraid to be hurt,

And it's easier just to run away;

To open the door and be gone.

I want to promise you

The next time it'll be easier for me to do

But I don't know if it will be then.

'Cause I'm so very scared of being hurt

And it flashes up sometimes.

But know that I will always jump

Even if it takes awhile.

'Cause I love you

And I'd do it a hundred times more

If it meant you'd stay my best friend.

'Cause I'm standing at the edge of a cliff

And you ask me to jump.

You ask me to trust you.

You say you'll catch me.

But I'm afraid to fall -

Afraid to be hurt,

And it's easier just to run away;

To open the door and be gone.

'Cause I'm standing at the edge of a cliff

And you ask me to jump.

You ask me to trust you.

You say you'll catch me.

But I'm afraid to fall -

Afraid to be hurt,

And it's easier just to run away;

To open the door and be gone.